Sunday, June 23, 2019

Without Faith

Over the years I have sat under the coverings of some world known pastors and ministries. I have listened and served with great leaders, but here is my thought lately.
We can sit under the best teachers and pastors. We can be trained by men and woman who are "famous" in the churches eyes, but if we have no faith then what really do we have except a lot of acquaintances?

If we look to others to teach us and hear God for us, then we will never have the encounter with Him. I hear people's options about church, God, and Christianity. I hear the world crying out for an authentic reality to what God is all about.
Which goes back to my original thought. If we don't have faith; the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things unseen (Hebrews 11:1) then how can we say we believe in a God which physically we can not see?

We have to have faith to believe that the God of the universe created us not for puppets on a string, or slaves to live by a religious law that is impossible to keep, but created to live in relationship with Him. Christianity has nothing to do with what we can do, but instead living from a position as receptacle. We receive the gift of forgiveness, we receive the gift of unconditional love, we receive mercy and grace. We don't have to work to go get it. It is ours because Jesus made the greatest sacrifice for us. He paid the ultimate price.

James 1:17 Every good thing given and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shifting shadow.
God is the giver for all good things! When you give someone a gift it is not out of duty or because they did everything to get it, but out of love for the individual. Ya'll nothing explains Christianity better than giving a gift to someone who never did anything to deserve, but out of love for the individual. No strings attached just authentic love of a Father!

Saturday, June 22, 2019

Mirror adjustment

How many of you are like me? You have days where you know your attitude is anything but polite. These are the days where you know silence is better than speaking because if you speak everything dictating your emotions will explode. Come on now I know I am not the only one!
Yesterday was such a day for me. I knew if I said anything it wasn't going to show my normally encouraging and happy self. It is also on those days where I know my attitude is completely off and days like those I know I just need to go back to bed and spend some raw time with Jesus. However I still had to work and for some reason on such days I seem to attract all the customers who can't read the invisible "please do not push buttons" sign.
Later that evening I went to my second job which I figured would be a quick and an easy night. I should laugh at myself for even thinking that with where I knew I was at. I headed back to the shop where I was handed what I'll call the mirror project. This customer wanted mirrors turned into picture frames. I began ripping the paper off the back, now how many of you know when you rip off the paper backing what's inside is exposed? Same exact thing with our attitudes! Now I can see the amounts of heavy glue this mirror is stuck to.
I begin trying to cut through the clue with a blade. I am trying to scrape this hard glue with a flat head, and as I would get some off it would reveal how difficult this process would be. Now I'm tired, impatient, and frustrated. Of course at this moment a customer comes to drop off more of the same project, and isn't the most delightful so to speak.
I return to the back of the shop where I'm tearing apart this mirror and trying not to break the glass. I really wanted to just take a hammer to the glass and be done, but I knew that wouldn't solve anything. At this point I was evaluating my attitude and why I was so irrational and emotional that day. I was centered around circumstances that no matter how hard I tried; I can't do anything to resolve. As I scraped the glue the Lord tells me this is what a hard heart looks like. We allow our hearts to harden to the point where nothing can get in. Boom! He told me the only way through a hard heart is to soften it. I needed a heat gun to melt the glue. You can't fix a heart that is hard, you have to humble and allow the hard heart to soften.
As the glue heated I watched it melt and become easier to scrape and cut through. I looked at the heat gun and immediately thought "Holy Spirit". We need the conviction of the Holy spirit to speak and soften our hearts. We can not do it with out Him. As I made progress I realized it was still going to be a long process, but now I am learning through it.
Minutes later my boss appears and evaluates the project only to say "I think we're going about this all the wrong way". He takes the tools and my gloves and flips the mirror. I am not even kidding when I say as he heated it from the opposite side and applied pressure, the weight of the mirror did the rest. Gravity! Seconds it took him! Up to that point two hours for myself. I stepped back as he did the next one and again the Lord spoke to me. It's okay to ask for help. You can't do it alone. You need to call for help.
You see often we try to be strong and hold it all together. If you're like me, you try to encourage and be there for everyone you love. You want to take their pain away. In this process we obtain a weight that was never ours to bare. When the circumstances around us cloud our judgement, or make it impossible to see beyond; we need to call on His name.
How many know if I hadn't swallowed my own pride and I hadn't stilled my heart to listen, then I'd still be back in the shop trying to cut through the glue? If I hadn't surrendered that situation I might still be angry and bitter, but anger and bitterness is only a mask which really isn't doing anything, but revealing the pain you're trying to hide. I believe the Lord was saying if you just call on Me then I will answer. If you call on Me then I will deliver you, I will rescue you from the hand of the enemy.
We don't have to carry the weight of the world, when Jesus already carried all the weight years ago. When we pick up the burdens and the worries of our circumstances, then we are allowing the weight of those circumstances to out weigh what Jesus already bore. His promises and His word are still more powerful than any painful or trying circumstances, and if we too would call on His name then we can walk in complete peace.

Matthew 11:28-30 (NIV) “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Monday, November 12, 2018

Unveiled & exposed

Have you ever been completely exposed? Have you ever encountered such a chapter of life that caused you to question your very being; especially what you believe?
I was in a time in life where I held something so tight that the Lord led me to give it away. My heart wanted nothing but to believe and not waver in faith, but really I was doubting so much of what I couldn't understand and I became blinded to what I could. I tried everything to understand and comprehend something I was sure was God. I wanted to believe because I wanted to be obedient. During this time I never saw my eagerness to be obedient was more another way for me to try and control what I didn't know. It was another false self protection. I had no idea how distracted it made me.

There came a point where my once hidden mystery was revealed. Everything I was confused and misunderstanding was completely exposed. I felt as though I was standing in front of the world with out clothes; there was nothing left. Some were facts, but much was mislead information and false accusations.

I came to a place where I had a decision to make. I could walk around wearing the labels other's had named me. I could wear the shame from the attention the lies had created for me. I could deny and argue against what was spoken. I could run away and completely give up. I could tell myself I can't hear God's voice. There were many decisions I could have made. OR I could stand up to every lie from Hell and speak the truth over who God says I am.
I was at a point where I came face to face with the biggest challenge of my life; what is it I truly believe. Do I believe God will speak to me? Do I believe God will give prophecy still today? Do I believe I can lay hands on people and see them be healed by the power of the Holy Spirit in me? Do I believe God will ever use me again? Or do I believe that was what I once believed, but then saw nothing but destruction and agony?

I had a choice and so do you! God can use you no matter what you have been through. No accusation or lie from the enemy can keep you from the high calling God has on your life. No amount of church hurt can destroy your character. No heart break can be so deep God can't completely restore.
I came to a place of laying down ever preaching again, ever praying for another, and certainly speaking words of knowledge. I was moving closer into the direction of the "safety net" of the sidelines. If I didn't tap into the Holy Spirit then I wouldn't have to believe ever again, and I wouldn't get hurt. What a lie! The enemy tried to steal my voice. The enemy tried to steal my identity, because how many of you know when you forget who you are in Christ, then you forget the power of Christ that dwells with in you.

When you recognize the power of Christ in you; the enemy has to flee. The accuser has to accuse himself. The truth comes to light, healing comes, and restoration is birthed. When you recognize the power of Christ in you, then you realize there is no demon in hell who can make you believe you can live just an average non faith filled dead christian walk. Absolutely Not! I had to learn to stand up, shake the dust off my torn old tennis shoes, I had to take them off and put on my brand new shiny heels. I had to strip off the old man and I had to clothe myself in the new woman God created me to be. You too can put on the new man. Renew your mind as the word of God tells us and let the Holy Spirit transform you completely. God has a purpose for you and the enemy thinks He's defeated you, but God has given you a powerful voice to rise above and speak a loud to your situation, and command that you stand from a place of Victory in Jesus Christ. You are a victor in Christ!
#IAMsJourney

Saturday, September 22, 2018

Dear YOU


To You,
I have not written in this way in a long time, but tonight I want to share my heart with you. I do not just want to be another Christian blogger or your typical "I'm going to start preaching on social media". I long to share truth in a world where the truth is often silenced. My desire is to encourage and build up others who often feel lost and alone.

Ephesians 4:11-16 11 And He Himself gave some to be apostles, some prophets, some evangelists, and some pastors and teachers, 12 for the equipping of the saints for the work of ministry, for the [e]edifying of the body of Christ, 13 till we all come to the unity of the faith and of the knowledge of the Son of God, to a perfect man, to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ; 14 that we should no longer be children, tossed to and fro and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the trickery of men, in the cunning craftiness of deceitful plotting, 15 but, speaking the truth in love, may grow up in all things into Him who is the head—Christ— 16 from whom the whole body, joined and knit together by what every joint supplies, according to the effective working by which every part does its share, causes growth of the body for the edifying of itself in love.

To cause growth to the body and how many of you know we all need growth in our lives. God has called all of us. Yes! God has called all of us. God doesn't just call pastors, teachers, and people who have a passion for ministry; He calls us Children of God (Romans 8:14 Those who are led by the spirit are sons of God.) If we are children of God than we have one responsibility; make Him known to this world! We are to love God above all else, and we are to love one another. We are to take the Gospel in to all the streets and to all walks of life. The true and authentic character of God is what we are to share. There are many who share their opinion of what they believe scripture says, but there is a freedom of truth when the truth is spoken. The Bible tells us that God's word is truth and the truth sets us free. John 17:17 your word is truth. John 8:32 And you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free.

My passion and my desire is to take this journey with I AM for Exodus 3:14
And God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM.” And He said, “Thus you shall say to the children of Israel, ‘I AM has sent me to you.’ ” 
God is I AM and He is calling all of His children to come to Him. He is calling all of His children to grow in Him, to know Him more, and to be the light unto this world. Jesus became flesh for us, so that we can be the righteousness of God in Christ. It is a platform for pride or social media likes or debates, NO! I AM's Journey is a place where we can grow together. Everything I share I share out of my own experiences and testimony. I share my heart with you, so that you to can walk in an intimate Journey with God. This is my heart and desire not only for I Am's Journey, but also Whosatmydoor, and Generation Revival. God has placed these on my Spirit to share the Gospel and I thank you for your time to read and grow with me. May these pages and posts encourage you to deeper levels in Christ. Glory to God!

Wednesday, August 1, 2018

Take Hold Of Courage

The other night I was laying down for bed and I began to hear the words “take hold”. I thought on it and laid back down, but there was a nudging in my spirit that gave me a hunger to know more.

Take: 1. In a general sense, to get hold or gain possession of a thing in almost any manner, either by receiving it when offered, or by using exertion to obtain it.

Hold: 1. To stop; to confine; to restrain from escape; to keep fast; to retain.
      1. To embrace and confine, with bearing or lifting.

Then I hear “Take Courage”

Alright Take mean to hold or gain possession.

What does courage mean?

Courage: COURAGE, noun [Latin , the heart.] Bravery; intrepidity; that quality of mind which enables men to encounter danger and difficulties with firmness, or without fear or depression of spirits; valor; boldness; resolution.

Courage is a mind factor! Courage is a choice.

Philippians 4:8 (NIV) Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

THINK!!

We have the ability to choose the thoughts in which we possess

Scripture also states
Proverbs 23:7 (NASB) For as he thinks within himself, so he is.

You mean whatever we think about we become?
We have a choice to what we think and believe?

Does this mean it is a choice and a mindset to walk in courage?
Does this mean that anyone can be courageous?

The more I started to realize courage is not something we gain, but it is a mindset we choose.
Just as we choose to walk in fear. We can choose to walk in courage.

Strongs Concordance Hebrew definition of a^mats #553 – to be alert, strengthen self, and to make strong.

Through out different translations we read the word courage as the word heart, and cheer.

Courage and choosing the mindset to encounter whatever situations you encounter is a choice.


Matthew 9:2 NKJV
Then behold, they brought to Him a paralytic lying on a bed. When Jesus saw their faith, He said to the paralytic, “Son, be of good cheer; your sins are forgiven you.”
Be of good cheer!
When I think of the way Jesus was speaking these words, I believe He is telling them to choose to be joyful.

The definition of Cheerful is a state of gladness or joy.

Again it is a state of mind. It is a choice on how we choose to live.

We can choose to walk around defeated and depressed, or we can choose to be men and women of valor; bravery, and courage.


Saturday, July 21, 2018

But For Now

I've spent most my life praying about you
Dreaming about you
Wondering about you.
What would your eyes look like when they first notice I am that her you've always asked God for; In the quietness of your bedroom late at night.
Questioning the moment we would share
The moment when all walls come down
And we renounce all fear.
Day dreaming and so often believing you'll never really be real.
I've spent my young days trying to beat the questions and thoughts of insecurities as I remind myself you're still worth the wait.
As I get older I no longer hold dear so close to me this fear.
Fear of being alone and never having my special significant person to build a home.
I no longer look for you and try to find you.
I don't question my single hood and look down on it with insecurities of not being enough.
Instead I choose to live my life running a race that is so worth the fight.
You see I no longer look for you and I no longer care. My heart is no longer so fragile anyone could tear. You see there is more purpose in my God given destiny, then to waste my time trying to decide with fake substitutes and a false identity.
You may be real.
One day you may come, but I tell the world I am worth more then to settle with just anybody to be a future wife and mom.
My purpose and my dignity
I choose to stand in my real reality
I choose to fight to believe in a dream much bigger than me.
So from a young adolescent dream to the woman standing in front of me
Be the me and let's go become all God's created us to be.
By:KLF
#IAMsJourney

One day, But For Now Today..

I've spent most my life praying about you
Dreaming about you
Wondering about you.
What would your eyes look like when they first notice I am that her you've always asked God for; In the quietness of your bedroom late at night.
Questioning the moment we would share
The moment when all walls come down
And we renounce all fear.
Day dreaming and so often believing you'll never really be real.
I've spent my young days trying to beat the questions and thoughts of insecurities as I remind myself you're still worth the wait.
As I get older I no longer hold dear so close to me this fear.
Fear of being alone and never having my special significant person to build a home.
I no longer look for you and try to find you.
I don't question my single hood and look down on it with insecurities of not being enough.
Instead I choose to live my life running a race that is so worth the fight.
You see I no longer look for you and I no longer care. My heart is no longer so fragile anyone could tear. You see there is more purpose in my God given destiny, then to waste my time trying to decide with fake substitutes and a false identity.
You may be real.
One day you may come, but I tell the world I am worth more then to settle with just anybody to be a future wife and mom.
My purpose and my dignity
I choose to stand in my real reality
I choose to fight to believe in a dream much bigger than me.
So from a young adolescent dream to the woman standing in front of me
Be the me and let's go become all God's created us to be.
By:KLF
#IAMsJourney

Tuesday, May 22, 2018

Hear our Cry

Father when I speak to you
I don't want my words to be filled with empty religion
let my words be words that will change the future of my lineage

As I speak let the reflection of my soul be what captures your very attention
May my heart reflect that of a young child who believes just about every word mentioned

Tame my tongue from doubt and any false expectations
Open my eyes and my ears to hear and see My Father's marvelous perfection

At times I can not see
There are times when it takes everything in me to believe
Oh but I know your promise is true
And you promise never to leave

Father I speak and declare the words which cover my life are words of promise and declaration of everything that screams your creation

Let my life bring praise and change
Unto a long lost and dying nation
Remind your people they too
Are called to be a change in a starving generation

Arise you speak to your church
Body of one mind and one accord
That often brings such discord
Be healed and come to unite a fire inside the church to fight
To fight for the body
To fight for the lost
To fight for the brethren who are hurting and can't see to count the cost

Bring healing and restore
Let the body open it's eyes and no longer ignore
The pain of those who cry in silence
 afraid of not being good enough to share their internal fight which often causes blindness

Oh Father hear our heart
Hear our cry
Hear us as we declare
This nation will one day again arise
To declare and raise your banner high.