I know the same pain, the same shame

Broken, abused

scared to hear the news of what the doctor might say

Years of fear has only been my everyday

I run and hide

I stand and fight

fight the man who my mama chose to be right

the family secret no one knows, but I know is not aight

I stand my ground and you will never see my frown

because I am tougher then what you might see

these fists will prove all that I need

hospitals, psychiatrists, drugs is not the solution for every kid facing divorce

torn from the arms of their father

and left facing the shattered pieces of what this life has delivered them

now full of fear against all men

Years pass and pain grows deep suicide is all that I believe will complete

complete the broken and abuse I faced

holding on is no longer a part of my race

chasing after the things of this world has only left me

used, torn, and with deep scars

Afraid and hungry for something to heal this heart

Chasing after temporary loves only left me falling apart

Throwing my dreams away with out thinking of what might happen when I awake

I find myself in the shadow of the darkness

I find myself holding on to this mess

This mess that I no longer have to hold

because I know the Father I serve is a Father who is one that I do not deserve

But He has given me grace to finish out this incredible race so that I stand and come face to face with those of His Daughter's who have encountered the same,

I know I may not know their name, but I know their pain

and there is nothing worse then being broken and standing alone in the rain.

In the dark nights  it's when I heard my Jesus say

 know this My sweet child of mine, I know your way

It is I your Savior

your creator of all time

and now is the moment where you will know once and for all

that you are are worthy of  my crown

not because of anything you have done, but what My son has done in your place

With this crown you can stand and finish this race

with faith and endurance it is by My great strength.